Action = reaction

Sometimes I wonder just where people are coming from. Actually, I just wonder what the hell they are thinking. Reactions to my barely contained joy have included the following:

• But it's cold in February - My mother
• Do I have to come? - My father
• *nothing at all* - Step-Mother and Half-Sister
• Oh that's absolutely wonderful *while crying* - The receptionist at my old job, when told by MB (Ha! Just realized I have to change this...ok, from now on, he's MF)
• I'm thinking of asking a vet out on a date - Ex-friend, as below
• *nothing at all* - Grandmother
• I've got goosebumps! - Friend of MF's family
• You could have the wedding here! - Proprietress of Inn that almost burnt to the ground while we were there
• *nothing at all* - Aunts, Uncles and Cousins
• It's about bloody time - Almost everybody

I will post in the blog once (if) I hear from my immediate family that they are, of course, thrilled for me.

I just don't know what I expected to be honest...I expected people to be happy and wish me well I guess. I guess I also wanted to be the centre of attention for a few seconds (those who know me understand that this doesn't happen very often). I also wanted people just to acknowledge the important step I am about to take. But I guess I also have to realize that this doesn't mean as much to other people, it is only a nice interlude in an otherwise boring day...hardly worth recognizing in fact. It would just be a piece of news that makes them go "Ah, well that's nice" before finishing off their lunch or the laundry.

I just put so much stock in other peoples opinions and feelings (I am the first to send a card / wish well on any occasion) that I thought they would feel the same way towards me, but they don't.

It just is so nice to hear from someone who I maybe haven't spoken to in a while tell me that they think of me, they wish me well, and that they will be looking forward to my happiest future.

I suppose I should have a wedding filled with receptionists, cleaning ladies, dry cleaners and friends of friends, rather than a bunch of relatives who don't want to pick up the phone. I wish it was that easy.

But such is this type of thing...a series of happy moments indispersed with upsets. I am just in an upset at this particular point in time.